It's a combination of reasons, really:
- Nostalgia, I guess. I grew up with the server and it's kind of hard to let go of that.
- TotalFreedom is one of the few communities I'm part of that isn't absolutely ridden with degeneracy in the staff team, works as a larger-scale friend group where people know eachother, and is a place where I can really fit in and join the common discourse constantly, even if I look like a bumbling idiot doing so.
- Even though the Minecraft server is dead, I still have an interest in protecting TF and its community. I won't go into much further details than that for now.
when are you gonna work on the TF wiki
To be honest, I don't know. I want to document more stuff but it's hard to be motivated when nobody else is really contributing to it, which is a common issue with this community I'm afraid. I'll get around to working on it when I can though.
how did you date saturnturn
I'm not sure what you mean on "how", but I figure I might as well answer it to the best of my abilities.
In June 2019 her and I began to really interact and talk on a more personal level with a lot of time spent together in VCs and the Minecraft server. Up to that point, we had known eachother for at least 3-4 years prior and even briefly dated in I believe August 2015, though it didn't last for long. Obviously, everyone knows what happened on VideoFreedom and the subsequent documents that came from it, so I won't go over this for the sake of brevity. Maybe it was because I was very caring to her at the time, but during those shenanigans she actually began to develop real feelings for me again. I began to pick up on the signs myself but ignored them out of fear that I was misinterpreting them, but eventually asked her about it which led her to spill the beans. From that point on we started to date. We spoke affectionately in Discord DMs and all that lovey-dovey cringe crap that you expect from an online relationship. I was never part of Smartn't, but they included me in various server politics and let me join their private SMP server that would later become the TotalFreedom SMP server.
Things didn't go well, though. By July 8th she ghosted me and broke up with me because she assumed that because I wore fedoras at the time, I was an incel. I didn't take it well. She proceeded to leak DMs I had with her to the rest of Smartn't at some point afterwards, which led them to treat me like shit throughout the rest of the year and the early months leading into 2020. This gave me a significant amount of motivation to seek retribution, so I proceeded to work with Luke and Zaid to expose corruption in the ranks using the privileged information I gathered using my position as an archivist while they were still treating me well. Aside from the executive corruption, I don't hold any of the personal stuff against them these days and because we were just stupid teenagers doing stupid things and there comes a point where you just need to let it go and move on.
If there's anything you should learn from this, it's to never date someone from TotalFreedom. It just won't work out.
