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After much hesitation, I've decided to share some insights into what transpired during my absence from the community and the events leading to my suspension. I also wish to express my intention to return to my former position.
My original suspension thread can be found here:
On the 9th of August, 2021, I received a ban from the Discord server due to making regrettable racist and transphobic remarks. For full transparency, you can view the comments that were made here and here. They involved comments such as "I hate trans" and "white supremacy". At the time, I failed to see the seriousness in some of the words I was saying, viewing them as jokes. However, I now see the gravity of my actions and just how much it affected some people. Additionally, I was involved in bullying certain members in the discord server, to which I deeply regret. Looking back on this, I can see just how immature I was and I apologise for it wholeheartedly.
I often used to play devil's advocate and got involved in arguments just for argument's sake. Furthermore, my stubbornness often hindered resolution. These traits not only strained relationships within TotalFreedom but also impacted my personal life. It was an argument with one of my closest friends that led me to realise that I needed to change.
Following my discord ban, I was angry and annoyed at the events that transpired, leading me to seek solace in-game to blow off some steam. Regrettably, I resorted to griefing an individuals build and pasting ender portals en masse all over the flatlands to tank the server's TPS. My response was in no way professional and further shows my immaturity at the time.
While I am unable to find specific threads pertaining to the ban, it seems as though they were locked to be admin only. From my recollection, I had received an indefinite ban from the events that took place on the server that day. However, this ban was lifted about a year or two ago during a purge of the ban list.
Throughout the remaining months of 2021 and the beginning months of 2022, I often bypassed my discord ban to annoy and stir up drama. I'd go under names such as "cucumber" and "anemone" to just generally be a cunt. I exhibited behaviour that served no constructive purpose, reflecting only on my immaturity at the time. I regret any harm or annoyance caused to the individuals that were affected by my actions under these aliases. I want to sincerely apologise again for my behaviour and emphasise the fact that I have committed to changing my behaviour for the better.
I have been wanting to make a thread like this for a while but I've been putting it off as I didn't want to spoil any relationships with people on the server that are not aware of my past. It seemed only right that I make this thread explaining what transpired so everyone has full transparency on what went on.
I intend to reinstate at some point, assuming the procedures permit it. The suspension return was a good opportunity to do both simultaneously, to address the events that occurred during my ban period and formally state my intention to reinstate.
Again, I am deeply sorry and if I've missed anything that went on please let me know. My memory is awful and I don't have access to a lot of the old threads. Not a good mix.
My original suspension thread can be found here:
9th of August, 2021
On the 9th of August, 2021, I received a ban from the Discord server due to making regrettable racist and transphobic remarks. For full transparency, you can view the comments that were made here and here. They involved comments such as "I hate trans" and "white supremacy". At the time, I failed to see the seriousness in some of the words I was saying, viewing them as jokes. However, I now see the gravity of my actions and just how much it affected some people. Additionally, I was involved in bullying certain members in the discord server, to which I deeply regret. Looking back on this, I can see just how immature I was and I apologise for it wholeheartedly.
I often used to play devil's advocate and got involved in arguments just for argument's sake. Furthermore, my stubbornness often hindered resolution. These traits not only strained relationships within TotalFreedom but also impacted my personal life. It was an argument with one of my closest friends that led me to realise that I needed to change.
Sometime following
Following my discord ban, I was angry and annoyed at the events that transpired, leading me to seek solace in-game to blow off some steam. Regrettably, I resorted to griefing an individuals build and pasting ender portals en masse all over the flatlands to tank the server's TPS. My response was in no way professional and further shows my immaturity at the time.
While I am unable to find specific threads pertaining to the ban, it seems as though they were locked to be admin only. From my recollection, I had received an indefinite ban from the events that took place on the server that day. However, this ban was lifted about a year or two ago during a purge of the ban list.
During late 2021 - early 2022
Throughout the remaining months of 2021 and the beginning months of 2022, I often bypassed my discord ban to annoy and stir up drama. I'd go under names such as "cucumber" and "anemone" to just generally be a cunt. I exhibited behaviour that served no constructive purpose, reflecting only on my immaturity at the time. I regret any harm or annoyance caused to the individuals that were affected by my actions under these aliases. I want to sincerely apologise again for my behaviour and emphasise the fact that I have committed to changing my behaviour for the better.
I have been wanting to make a thread like this for a while but I've been putting it off as I didn't want to spoil any relationships with people on the server that are not aware of my past. It seemed only right that I make this thread explaining what transpired so everyone has full transparency on what went on.
Intention to reinstate
I intend to reinstate at some point, assuming the procedures permit it. The suspension return was a good opportunity to do both simultaneously, to address the events that occurred during my ban period and formally state my intention to reinstate.
Again, I am deeply sorry and if I've missed anything that went on please let me know. My memory is awful and I don't have access to a lot of the old threads. Not a good mix.